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anigoAlmost one year ago to the day a little girl named Karissa Boudreau went missing in a very cute little town not far from where I go sailing. Her mother was hysterical. They were together in the car in the parking lot of a grocery store and they had a fight. Her mother went in for groceries and when she got back Karissa was gone. Video of her mother was everywhere - begging for her daughter's safe return. Karissa's body was found a few days later on the river bank not far from where she was seen last.
Today, her mother was found guilty in her murder.
Karissa was a 12 year old girl. Twelve. The Kid is 12. She was TWELVE. I don't understand. Really.
I cannot for the LIFE of me understand.
I cannot imagine anybody I *think* loves me telling me I have to choose between him and The Kid and making THIS choice.
I cannot for the life of me imagine taking The Kid in the car, arguing with her, pushing her down, putting my knee on her chest and STRANGLING HER WITH A PIECE OF ROPE UNTIL SHE STOPPED BREATHING!!! Meanwhile she's saying to me... Mommy Don't.
It is absolutely unimaginable.
And then, taking her body, taking off her pants and underwear to make it look like she was sexually assaulted. And DUMP HER. Leave her there partially clothed for STRANGERS to find.
It actually makes my brain want to break. I can physically feel my brain attempting to break when trying to even imagine it.
Don't get me wrong. I can imagine being angry enough to want to bitch slap her. I haven't ever been that angry or bitch slapped her, but I can imagine it. But this... This is beyond unimaginable.
She'll get 20 years in prison before she's eligible for parole.
I'm... not sure how I feel about that.
Wow.
Today, her mother was found guilty in her murder.
Karissa was a 12 year old girl. Twelve. The Kid is 12. She was TWELVE. I don't understand. Really.
I cannot for the LIFE of me understand.
I cannot imagine anybody I *think* loves me telling me I have to choose between him and The Kid and making THIS choice.
I cannot for the life of me imagine taking The Kid in the car, arguing with her, pushing her down, putting my knee on her chest and STRANGLING HER WITH A PIECE OF ROPE UNTIL SHE STOPPED BREATHING!!! Meanwhile she's saying to me... Mommy Don't.
It is absolutely unimaginable.
And then, taking her body, taking off her pants and underwear to make it look like she was sexually assaulted. And DUMP HER. Leave her there partially clothed for STRANGERS to find.
It actually makes my brain want to break. I can physically feel my brain attempting to break when trying to even imagine it.
Don't get me wrong. I can imagine being angry enough to want to bitch slap her. I haven't ever been that angry or bitch slapped her, but I can imagine it. But this... This is beyond unimaginable.
She'll get 20 years in prison before she's eligible for parole.
I'm... not sure how I feel about that.
Wow.