Reflections and other shite
Jan. 3rd, 2009 08:43 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
anigo This year Thom bought a new boat which I hated but ended up liking a bit. It's nice to be on equal footing with the guys. It's new to all of us, and I'm making myself useful in the navigation and electronics end of things. It's nice to have a niche.
My computer died. Totally Died. Total reformat and everything. Luckily I do regular backups. Unluckily their incremental backups so I have 2 years worth of weekly increments that I need to search through to find shite. I wont make that mistake again.
This year I bought kayaks for all of us. It's great to have something we can do as a family. It's also great to have something else to be passionate about. My big trip this year was to Hopewell Cape where there are the worlds highest tides. I went with my bestest bud Mo. We Kayaked during high tide and hiked during low tide. We also hiked through Fundy National Park. We stayed at an INCREDIBLE bed and breakfast which I recommend in a heartbeat if you're staying in that area of New Brunswick.
This year my FIL had two strokes and he and my MIL came to live with us for a couple of months. We all survived. Thank god.
I'm sure I did other shite, but I can't remember it. That's the highlights anyway.
And now a look back at my 2008 resolutions.
1) I am going to be healthier. I will weigh less and be stronger. This involves eating less crap (see #4) and exercising. I will also stay off the scale. I will not get on the scale because how much the scale says I weigh has absolutely no relation to how I feel about myself or my body. I will be considerably healthier by the long weekend in May. My measurable goal is to fit into a size 11 bridesmaid's dress by the long weekend in May, but I WILL STAY OFF THE SCALE to get there. Sort of check. I'm healthier, and lighter and stronger. I discovered my own version of Atkins (We'll call it Anigokins) which actually has helped me lose about 20 pounds (though I gained 5 back over the holidays) and I've been doing TaeKwonDo three times a week and swimming twice a week. I feel fantastic. Better at 40 than I did all through my 30s. I used the kayak when I can (when there's no ice on any body of water) Yay me! I didn't make it to the size 11 dress. Actually, I did, but I ordered a size 13 anyway because I was afraid an 11 wouldn't fit. The 13 was too big. :D My brain has also been agreeing with me for the most part over the past year. I like that. I can't resist the scale though and perhaps I shall cease trying.
2) I will travel. Particularly places that require passports. Check. In 2008 I went to Seattle and Vancouver. I even hung out in Seattle for 2 days by myself. I also booked us all a vacation in Punta Cana. Now, granted that's going to happen in 2009, but I did it in 2008. And I also have plans to go to New York in May, so Check
3) I will throw things out and I will say no. And I will do both things with as little guilt as possible. This is actually the one resolution that I remembered the best over the year. I didn't always do it, but I did do it more than I have in the past. A little improvement is always good.
4) I will make every attempt to evaluate every thing I do, eat, say, etc., to see how it benefits me or benefits the rest of the world. If it's no benefit, then why waste the energy of doing it. Pffffttt... This resolution, however, was forgotten not long after I typed it,
and finally
5) I will add to (and if necessary remove from) this list as I figure it's necessary. January 1 is a good time to start things, but it's not the only time. Didn't add anything. It wasn't a bad list. In fact, it was good enough that I think I shall...
...use it again this year. (With perhaps a few modifications)
1) I am going to be healthier. I will weigh less and be stronger. This involves eating less crap and exercising.I will also stay off the scale. I will not get on the scale because how much the scale says I weigh has absolutely no relation to how I feel about myself or my body. I will also be lighter by March 30th which is when I fly to Punta Cana. I will be in a bikini. It may not be a pretty sight, but I'll be in one. :)
2) I will travel. Particularly places that require passports. I am now 40. Forty is the age of the traveller. This year I am going to go to Punta Cana and New York at the very least. If my funds provide, I shall also visit my dad in North Carolina or Georgia. If funds further provide I shall go other places too.
3) I will continue to get better at throwing things out and saying no. And I will do both things with as little guilt as possible.
4) I will post more, I will love myself more every day and I will take time for myself on a regular basis.
and finally
5) I will add to (and if necessary remove from) this list as I figure it's necessary. January 1 is a good time to start things, but it's not the only time.
And today I am suffering from PMS horribly. My boobs are killing me and I fear I may cry any second. The trees (Yeah, I put two up this year, we bought new furniture for the living room that is very elegant and I couldn't put my old sailboat ornaments up with the elegance so I bought elegant ornaments for the living room. I couldn't divest myself of the sailboats though, so they went up in the rec room. It was wonderful. Sorry... I digressed) need to come down today. I HATE this so bad. But they've been up for a while and they're losing their needles really badly. They should come down. But for me (**Insert swelling music here**) I always feel for some reason like I missed something when it's time to bring it all down. Like I didn't take advantage of the season properly. Like I could have or should have done more. In reality, I had two trees, a Christmas and New Year's Eve party. I spent a shite load of money and got some wonderful gifts in return. I spent a lot of time with family and friends, didn't bake much but ate more than I should have. Listened to the Shepherd on Christmas Eve... There's really not much more a person can get in there, I don't think.) Ok, so that helped. Writing it down.
So today I'm going to take the trees down and maybe wash the kitchen floor and do some laundry. I'm also going to pamper myself to the nth degree today because I need it and deserve it. This includes a shower with brand new smelly stuff. Yummy coffee. Hell, good food all around. (Anigokins is very obliging that way)
Yanno what, maybe I'll take them down tomorrow. Tonight I'll get a picture of them with the lights on. (**Stifles a sob**) Yep. Tomorrow would be a better idea.
Fucking PMS. Seriously.
**Edit. Wow, Lj's formatting was being very unfriendly to me today.
My computer died. Totally Died. Total reformat and everything. Luckily I do regular backups. Unluckily their incremental backups so I have 2 years worth of weekly increments that I need to search through to find shite. I wont make that mistake again.
This year I bought kayaks for all of us. It's great to have something we can do as a family. It's also great to have something else to be passionate about. My big trip this year was to Hopewell Cape where there are the worlds highest tides. I went with my bestest bud Mo. We Kayaked during high tide and hiked during low tide. We also hiked through Fundy National Park. We stayed at an INCREDIBLE bed and breakfast which I recommend in a heartbeat if you're staying in that area of New Brunswick.
This year my FIL had two strokes and he and my MIL came to live with us for a couple of months. We all survived. Thank god.
I'm sure I did other shite, but I can't remember it. That's the highlights anyway.
And now a look back at my 2008 resolutions.
1) I am going to be healthier. I will weigh less and be stronger. This involves eating less crap (see #4) and exercising. I will also stay off the scale. I will not get on the scale because how much the scale says I weigh has absolutely no relation to how I feel about myself or my body. I will be considerably healthier by the long weekend in May. My measurable goal is to fit into a size 11 bridesmaid's dress by the long weekend in May, but I WILL STAY OFF THE SCALE to get there. Sort of check. I'm healthier, and lighter and stronger. I discovered my own version of Atkins (We'll call it Anigokins) which actually has helped me lose about 20 pounds (though I gained 5 back over the holidays) and I've been doing TaeKwonDo three times a week and swimming twice a week. I feel fantastic. Better at 40 than I did all through my 30s. I used the kayak when I can (when there's no ice on any body of water) Yay me! I didn't make it to the size 11 dress. Actually, I did, but I ordered a size 13 anyway because I was afraid an 11 wouldn't fit. The 13 was too big. :D My brain has also been agreeing with me for the most part over the past year. I like that. I can't resist the scale though and perhaps I shall cease trying.
2) I will travel. Particularly places that require passports. Check. In 2008 I went to Seattle and Vancouver. I even hung out in Seattle for 2 days by myself. I also booked us all a vacation in Punta Cana. Now, granted that's going to happen in 2009, but I did it in 2008. And I also have plans to go to New York in May, so Check
3) I will throw things out and I will say no. And I will do both things with as little guilt as possible. This is actually the one resolution that I remembered the best over the year. I didn't always do it, but I did do it more than I have in the past. A little improvement is always good.
4) I will make every attempt to evaluate every thing I do, eat, say, etc., to see how it benefits me or benefits the rest of the world. If it's no benefit, then why waste the energy of doing it. Pffffttt... This resolution, however, was forgotten not long after I typed it,
and finally
5) I will add to (and if necessary remove from) this list as I figure it's necessary. January 1 is a good time to start things, but it's not the only time. Didn't add anything. It wasn't a bad list. In fact, it was good enough that I think I shall...
...use it again this year. (With perhaps a few modifications)
1) I am going to be healthier. I will weigh less and be stronger. This involves eating less crap and exercising.
2) I will travel. Particularly places that require passports. I am now 40. Forty is the age of the traveller. This year I am going to go to Punta Cana and New York at the very least. If my funds provide, I shall also visit my dad in North Carolina or Georgia. If funds further provide I shall go other places too.
3) I will continue to get better at throwing things out and saying no. And I will do both things with as little guilt as possible.
4) I will post more, I will love myself more every day and I will take time for myself on a regular basis.
and finally
5) I will add to (and if necessary remove from) this list as I figure it's necessary. January 1 is a good time to start things, but it's not the only time.
And today I am suffering from PMS horribly. My boobs are killing me and I fear I may cry any second. The trees (Yeah, I put two up this year, we bought new furniture for the living room that is very elegant and I couldn't put my old sailboat ornaments up with the elegance so I bought elegant ornaments for the living room. I couldn't divest myself of the sailboats though, so they went up in the rec room. It was wonderful. Sorry... I digressed) need to come down today. I HATE this so bad. But they've been up for a while and they're losing their needles really badly. They should come down. But for me (**Insert swelling music here**) I always feel for some reason like I missed something when it's time to bring it all down. Like I didn't take advantage of the season properly. Like I could have or should have done more. In reality, I had two trees, a Christmas and New Year's Eve party. I spent a shite load of money and got some wonderful gifts in return. I spent a lot of time with family and friends, didn't bake much but ate more than I should have. Listened to the Shepherd on Christmas Eve... There's really not much more a person can get in there, I don't think.) Ok, so that helped. Writing it down.
So today I'm going to take the trees down and maybe wash the kitchen floor and do some laundry. I'm also going to pamper myself to the nth degree today because I need it and deserve it. This includes a shower with brand new smelly stuff. Yummy coffee. Hell, good food all around. (Anigokins is very obliging that way)
Yanno what, maybe I'll take them down tomorrow. Tonight I'll get a picture of them with the lights on. (**Stifles a sob**) Yep. Tomorrow would be a better idea.
Fucking PMS. Seriously.
**Edit. Wow, Lj's formatting was being very unfriendly to me today.