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anigoSo.
Yesterday was a less than great day for me. Wednesdays aren't great to start with. In addition to my regular work day, I've got two classes, Accounting from 8:30 -9:45 and then Marketing from 6 until 9. So I get up, go to class, go to work, go back to class, come home, go to bed.
Yesterday morning I was running late and Jess was no help whatsoever. She was dawdling along like nobody's business. As I was trying to bustle us out the door we had a fight about which coat she should wear. I got so frustrated. I lost it, threw the coat on the floor and told her to wear it because *I* told her to.
Jess is six. I am 34. Which one of us is supposed to be the mature one? I have been feeling HORRIBLE about it ever since. I appologized right away. I took the afternoon off from work, picked her up after school and we hung out all afternoon. We went to a pottery shop and painted some pottery then went to Burger King afterwards. Then after supper I went to my six o'clock class.
However.
I am now realizing I am beyond stressed. Between these classes and the work situation I am just not handling things well. Richard is no help whatsoever, and I just haven't had the energy to make the effort on my part to keep our relationship going (which, in our relationship, is what is required to keep it going... he's not much of a relationship effort man, but that's another story.)
So I have been thinking about just what the hell I'm doing.
I am 3 credits into a Business Degree that requires 20 credits. Each course is half a credit long and lasts half a term. I'm taking two classes a term and working four days a week. On paper it sounds plausable, but as soon as the classes start getting a little bit challenging, juggling homework becomes super difficult.
The Business Degree is divided into three sections. A Business Certificate (6 credits), a Business Diploma(12 credits) and the Bachelor of Business Administration(20 credits).
I am enrolled in two courses this term and two courses next term which will bring my credits up to five by the end of the school year. I'll only need two more to complete the certificate.
I want a degree. Why? That's a good question. Because I like learning, because everybody else has a degree, because people with degrees make more money than people without degrees, because it's very cool being a mature student....
Do I care what degee I get? Sort of, but not necessarily. A BA only requires 15 credits, but a BBA is much more useful in todays working world. I'm finding the BBA SOOOOOOOOO very boring though.
If I drop to one class a semester after I finish this school year it will be 15 more years (assuming I pass everything) before I have my BBA. That will make me 49 years old. Having a BBA or not having a BBA won't make a whole lot of difference when it comes to getting a job at 49 years old.
Having typed all that, I'm looking at the university calendar. A BA isn't a bad thing to have, is it?
I'll have five credits at the end of this year. That would leave me only ten more to get. Ten years is better than 15. And I'd enjoy the classes more.
But then again, who says I need to have a university ANYTHING!?!?
Maybe life would be better if I just focused on things other than career advancement/satisfaction. I'm not a corporate ladder climber, but I want to be something other than a burger flipper at McDonalds (not that there's anything wrong with that.)
But if I stopped school at the certificate, I'd have more money (because I won't be spending gobs of it on tuition).
Maybe go to one class a semester and take things that interest me instead of (gah) economics.
On top of all this, I looked at the next 12 courses required to get to the next level - the business diploma. They include:
Legal Aspects of Business
Production and Operations Management
Managerial Accounting
Finance I
Finance II
Mathematical Analysis for Economics and Business
Introduction to Probability and Statistics I
Introduction to Probability and Statistics II
Can you feel the excitement in the room?
It was at this point when I realized that I really don't want to spend the next 10 years of my life learning about how the coeficient of the economic currency rate of Borneo affects the management style of any given production facility based on Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs.
After I apologized to Jess, she said, "well, why don't you just quit".
I hate quitting anything more than you know. But I hate not being a perfect mother for Jess more.
My immediate plan is to not stop the courses I've paid for (finish the school year) but then what. Jess will be 21 when I'm finished my BBA. I don't want to spend the best years of her life at work and at school.
Help.
Yesterday was a less than great day for me. Wednesdays aren't great to start with. In addition to my regular work day, I've got two classes, Accounting from 8:30 -9:45 and then Marketing from 6 until 9. So I get up, go to class, go to work, go back to class, come home, go to bed.
Yesterday morning I was running late and Jess was no help whatsoever. She was dawdling along like nobody's business. As I was trying to bustle us out the door we had a fight about which coat she should wear. I got so frustrated. I lost it, threw the coat on the floor and told her to wear it because *I* told her to.
Jess is six. I am 34. Which one of us is supposed to be the mature one? I have been feeling HORRIBLE about it ever since. I appologized right away. I took the afternoon off from work, picked her up after school and we hung out all afternoon. We went to a pottery shop and painted some pottery then went to Burger King afterwards. Then after supper I went to my six o'clock class.
However.
I am now realizing I am beyond stressed. Between these classes and the work situation I am just not handling things well. Richard is no help whatsoever, and I just haven't had the energy to make the effort on my part to keep our relationship going (which, in our relationship, is what is required to keep it going... he's not much of a relationship effort man, but that's another story.)
So I have been thinking about just what the hell I'm doing.
I am 3 credits into a Business Degree that requires 20 credits. Each course is half a credit long and lasts half a term. I'm taking two classes a term and working four days a week. On paper it sounds plausable, but as soon as the classes start getting a little bit challenging, juggling homework becomes super difficult.
The Business Degree is divided into three sections. A Business Certificate (6 credits), a Business Diploma(12 credits) and the Bachelor of Business Administration(20 credits).
I am enrolled in two courses this term and two courses next term which will bring my credits up to five by the end of the school year. I'll only need two more to complete the certificate.
I want a degree. Why? That's a good question. Because I like learning, because everybody else has a degree, because people with degrees make more money than people without degrees, because it's very cool being a mature student....
Do I care what degee I get? Sort of, but not necessarily. A BA only requires 15 credits, but a BBA is much more useful in todays working world. I'm finding the BBA SOOOOOOOOO very boring though.
If I drop to one class a semester after I finish this school year it will be 15 more years (assuming I pass everything) before I have my BBA. That will make me 49 years old. Having a BBA or not having a BBA won't make a whole lot of difference when it comes to getting a job at 49 years old.
Having typed all that, I'm looking at the university calendar. A BA isn't a bad thing to have, is it?
I'll have five credits at the end of this year. That would leave me only ten more to get. Ten years is better than 15. And I'd enjoy the classes more.
But then again, who says I need to have a university ANYTHING!?!?
Maybe life would be better if I just focused on things other than career advancement/satisfaction. I'm not a corporate ladder climber, but I want to be something other than a burger flipper at McDonalds (not that there's anything wrong with that.)
But if I stopped school at the certificate, I'd have more money (because I won't be spending gobs of it on tuition).
Maybe go to one class a semester and take things that interest me instead of (gah) economics.
On top of all this, I looked at the next 12 courses required to get to the next level - the business diploma. They include:
Legal Aspects of Business
Production and Operations Management
Managerial Accounting
Finance I
Finance II
Mathematical Analysis for Economics and Business
Introduction to Probability and Statistics I
Introduction to Probability and Statistics II
Can you feel the excitement in the room?
It was at this point when I realized that I really don't want to spend the next 10 years of my life learning about how the coeficient of the economic currency rate of Borneo affects the management style of any given production facility based on Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs.
After I apologized to Jess, she said, "well, why don't you just quit".
I hate quitting anything more than you know. But I hate not being a perfect mother for Jess more.
My immediate plan is to not stop the courses I've paid for (finish the school year) but then what. Jess will be 21 when I'm finished my BBA. I don't want to spend the best years of her life at work and at school.
Help.
